There’s one thing I’ve always wanted to control in my life: the way people “looked at me”, what they thought, their opinion about me – then you tell me, “Deise, that’s impossible” because, yes, it is, I understand it today, but at that time, no one could convince me otherwise – I thought I could and it caused me a lot of pain and confusion.
I have a very proper way of being, I recognize this, and I know that my personal choices weren’t/aren’t easy, so I paid a very high price…
My heart didn’t want to believe that where I wanted to be, was no longer my place. That those people I lived with, didn’t love me enough, they didn’t care enough, or wanted me the way I deserved. That feeling had haunted me for a long time, influenced me in a lot of “bad decisions” during my journey, gave me “bad thoughts” about myself, but you know, I came to the conclusion that living like this was not worth it.
I could not, I can not, and I just won’t control others’ opinions about me!
I kept thinking for a long time that nobody took me seriously – then I thought “how much does that affect me?” “Do I take myself seriously”?
Just because someone does not value you, you should not think you’ve lost or diminished your value. It may sound cliché, but believe me, whoever needs to give you value and importance it is you!
Take yourself seriously: do what you love, don’t lose your voice, share your opinion, love who you are, try to be your best, discover your talents and develop them, change what you need to change, take your own time… LOVE YOURSELF, TREAT YOURSELF.
“Live your life, live your life, let the love inside
It’s your life, it’s your life, your beauty’s deep inside, inside you
Don’t let ‘em bring you down, no, the beauty is inside you
Don’t let ‘em bring you down, no.” – Chris Brown in his song, Beautiful People.
I believe in a God who loves me, who has better answers for me, who takes care of me, and that if I remain, the victory that He has for me will be great, WILL BE MINE! Don’t lose your life trying to please others, respect them, love them, but be yourself.
Senhorita Deise 
Beautiful post!
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Thank you so much Tisha 🙂
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Hey, Deise!
What a surprise see an english post here!
First: Sorry about my bad english 😦 I like too much read this post, I could see if my english are good (hahaha!) and I’m so happy that I can understand your post (you really helped me!). So, if I can read a big text in english AND understand it, why I can not comment?
About your text: I LOVE IT! We really need to love ourselves, at first! And i love your last phrase: “I believe in a God who loves me, who has better answers for me, who takes care of me, and that if I remain, the victory that He has for me will be great, WILL BE MINE!”.
This is a beautiful text, I love! ❤ (sorry about my english again)
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Hey dear Vitória, it was a surprise for me to see your comment in english!
OMG, this made me so happy!!!!!!! Thank you so much for letting me know what you think and liked about my text, this means a lot to me, and makes me want to evolve even more. I’ve been writing in english for a while, and you can find more posts like this one, in this tag named “Available In English”…
PS: your english is very good, you’re doing very well!
XOXO ❤
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Very powerful and honest.
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Nicely done.
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I definitely enjoyed the message of this! In the end what matters is what we think of ourselves, that’s the only thing we can change.
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Very well said. I feel like so many people (definitely myself as a teenager) often take what others think of them very seriously and really, it shouldn’t matter. All that matters is what we think of ourselves. 🙂
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My heart needed this! Thank you! Beautifully written.
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Wow, it’s so good to know that I spoke to your heart! Thank you for your comment and your visit dear Andreanna! ❤ God bless you always!
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